Saturday, March 21, 2009

HOW STELLA......ERRR....APRIL GOT HER GROOVE BACK


The rumors are false, I have not fallen off the face of the earth.  I made it to the edge, but did not fall.  Cool huh?  Sooooooo............

If you are familiar with the movie starring Angela Bassett, How Stella Got Her Groove Back, then you will be totally disappointed with this post!  I am NOT Angela Bassett.  True story.  I am not a sexy successful stock broker (but who is these days).  I am a wife and mom making an effort to make changes in my life.  BIG CHANGES.  And there is no steamy Taye Diggs in my life who has tried to seduce me.  I have Drew!  

THIS IS REAL LIFE PEOPLE!!!  He snores, he doesn't throw things in the trash, he has to be reminded 9 0r 10 times to do something,  and he doesn't clean out the tub.  But would I trade him for anyone else?  ABSOLUTELY NOT!  We have been to hell and back and we still love each other.  We still respect each other.   (How lucky we are to have come out of everything still in love, still respecting each other, still communicating with each other.    There are so many who fall victim to day to day life.)  

The only similarity between Stella and I (is that even proper grammar?) is that I too am starting to get my groove back.  I am realizing what REALLY is important in life.  I knew intellectually what was important.  I just wasn't allowing myself to believe that I was worthy to have those things.  I am.  I deserve it.  I am worthy.  The sooner I accept it, the sooner my family will be able to have ALL of me and not just part of me.  Is this making sense to you?  

I am not known to be a fast learner.  I have a stubborn streak (or two).  I have been known to wear my finger nails down to the quick because of hanging on to the past for dear life.  I hang on because this is all I know.  This all I have.  It is like an old friend.  Does that sound familiar?  I just needed the tools and the guidance to move forward.  I have been searching for this.  I knew that when I heard what was right for me I would recognize it.  I have heard it.  It struck a chord.

Like a jig saw puzzle, the pieces are starting to fall into place.  Tender mercies are being shown to me. I am being shown a new way of "being" and living.  I have hope for change and a permanent change at that.  People are being brought into my life and these people teach me every day!  I LOVE IT!!!  It is amazing!  It is changing my life!

Sounds easy right?  I've made changes before.  BIG CHANGES.  So imagine my utter joy to make some more!  (Note the sarcasm.)  YEAH!!!  Even my sarcasm is returning!!!  I thought I had lost it forever!!!  

Let's pause for a moment of silence for the return of my sarcasm that I thought was lost.........................................................................................................................................
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AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....that felt great!

Now, the bad news......just kidding!  A new and improved me is returning....I am trying to get the feel of the new me.  So, bear with me just a little longer. 

Oh, and did I mention that my son gets home from his mission in 12 DAYS!!!!  AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!  I'm about to burst!!!!

33 comments:

Kazzy said...

Oh, your son will be home so soon! Congrats. That is a success for your whole family.

I am sooo glad you are getting your groove back. I have missed you around here.

Ever come north?

Kristina P. said...

I'm just glad to hear from you! And that's so exciting about your son. What a fun, fun time.

The Papa's said...

1st-I love reading your posts. You're an amazing example & I always take something away from reading.
2nd-We've missed you...blogwise. I'm lucky enough to see you 2x a week!!!
3rd-Congrats on your son coming home. I'm sure that is excitement that just can't be described.

See ya' on Monday!!!

April said...

Hey Miss Kazzy! Yes, are you so jealous that my son is coming home and your son is still out there? I bet yes and no. I was just up north last weekend, but no time to play. My sister had me on a TIGHT schedule painting her house! We got it done! YEAH! But we will be up there visiting soon because she is buying a house soon, so I will let you know!

April said...

Kristina! Hey Missy! How are you? We are sooooo excited to get our boy home!!!! He may have to sleep on the couch for a while because we haven't finished his room yet, but I'm sure he won't mind!

Roxanne! My dear friend and coworker, you make me laugh! I love your smiling face! You are so kind! I think that you ROCK! So there!

Heidi Ashworth said...

Hey, April, I am going to be in Utah in April (what a coinkeedink!). Any chance I will get to see you then? April 24-27th . . .

Sandi said...

So glad that groove is back- I have missed it you know. Maybe I will start calling you Stella. And I think Drew looks a little like Taye Diggs..hahahahah please tell him I said that! I bet you are DYING to get your hands on Chase- so exciting! Cute pic, tell Broc I thinks he looks a little "special"
p.s. Dave and Kenny are coming there next week for a bike race- be watching out for them and their spandex!!!

dede said...

loved your post - it is inspriring!

I was waiting for you to knock on my door - sorry I missed you (I did however check out your work - nice job!)

12 days (well now 11) - really? SOOOO exciting!

springrose said...

Glad you are back! Its been sad not seeing your comments over at Crashes!!! We all have times we need to get our groves back. Glad yours is coming back, hopefully in full force, mine always does with the coming of spring! Maybe its the name and the fact that I was actually born in April! Good to hear from you again, April H.

April said...

Heidi!! You will be in Utarh!!! (note the accent) Let me know where and I will book the time off work!!! I would love to see you! I was just chatting with Kazzy about when we were going to get to see each other too! FUN!!!

SANDI!!! hahahaha, Drew and Taye! HA! Well they both have one syllable names! I will keep my eye out for the spandex boys! But when they get close I will look away! hahaha!!!

April said...

Dede!! I saw that you had some remodeling going on at your place as we drove up to my sister's. I would have love to come over, but Robin had us chained to her house, I mean on such a tight schedule! Next time we are there I want to see what you have done to your bathrooms!

Spring/April-thanks for missing me! It's nice to be missed. I was born in Feb, so that isn't the reason my groove is coming back....mine is coming back because I am learning stuff about relationships in my life and how to handle them appropriately and still be kind to myself. Long story!

susette said...

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T said...

eleven days now... too flipping exciting :)

and I have to come HERE to find that Heidi's planning a visit... I might have to ambush her at her book signing or whatever it is that brings her to the land of oh my hecks... (wait, unless she's going to be HERE while I'm in California... wouldn't THAT suck?)

robin said...

I know, I know, I'm such tough task master and if I wasn't so good at being so terrible at painting I would have done it myself. Unfortunately for you ( and fortunately for me... you are so good at what you do. You are awesome!!! thanks again!!

btw.. that's twice the wv has a word close to wart this time it is wortory... is the wv trying to tell me the "burnings" weren't successful on my foot????

Tyler and Kacie said...

Well, I for one, never thought you lost it in the first place! You are always little miss sassy pants. But if you're telling me you get EVEN BETTER...I can't wait!!! PARTAY!!!!! LOL. I am so excited for you to have Chase home. I can't wait to meet son #1.

Michelle said...

11 days, that is crazy! I am so excited to see him what is left of his skinny self! So glad to hear that you are back, and now someday we can still do your lunch!!! I am just a little late!

April said...

T!! I know....Miss Heidi is coming to visit!!! I have to pick out a nice outfit!! When I find out I will let you know and if you find out you tell me..deal?

Toad....I can barely type this comment because my hands are still aching....sigh...j/k!!!

Thanks Kacie! That's why I think you are so awesome! And no I am not sassier!

April said...

Michelle, I know! It's crazy!! I can't wait to see him either! I'm about to burst! How's the yard coming???? I hope better than mine! We do still have a lunch to go to...yummy!

Shelle-BlokThoughts said...

YEA!!! I'm glad you are getting your MOJO back...but more importantly your SON IS COMING HOME SOON!

So exciting!

Alyson (New England Living) said...

So happy you are getting your groove back. So happy you are feeling peace and know what's most important to you and your life. I know how you feel!

Yay for your son's immient return!

Youngblood4ever said...

Glad your son will be back. RM's are a load of fun for crazy stories. He should have some great stories about weird companions. (oh, and if he doesn't then he was the weird companion.)

Missed ya tons! Glad you're back!

April said...

Shelle! Have I been gone so long that you have changed profile pics again? Oh my!! YES! I am so excited for my boy to get home! I can't wait to hug him and squeeze him!

Alyson I have missed you! You bring a smile to my face! I love how you get it!

YB4, OMGosh!!! I laughed out loud! That is funny! He will have stories to tell, that's for sure!!!

I am LoW said...

Awesome news, all of it, the good change and the son coming home!!

wendy said...

WOW --I am soooo glad you back. I love the new look on your blog, loved the photo of you and hubby and son. AND 12 days before your missionsary comes home. I am sooo happy for you...........and whatever it was that had you down, that was trying to drown you, I am glad you were able to work through "IT" I am---so---glad

April said...

Thanks LoW! I hope I can contain myself for 10 more days!

Wendy!! I have decided that some things are just there. There is no finish line. I am just learning to deal with it in different ways instead of hoping for it to be over....did that make sense?

Annie Valentine said...

If that photo is any indication of you and your grove, you're right. You're looking great. And I'm so excited for your boy to be home, bake him a cake for me, would ya?

cttewhitney said...

girl you are amazing and i'm so glad you're getting you're groove back!!

April said...

Annie, thanks you're so sweet! I will bake him a cake for you....he will loooove it!

Tiff! You are awesome!!! Love ya girl!

Heidi Ashworth said...

Hey, you sweetie-pie, I see Miss D on your shelfari--way cool! Thanks! See my blog for dates when I will be in Utah b/c I really REALLY want to give you a hug!

Kritta22 said...

Hello friend!

Glad to see you taking some time for yourself.

i heart you.

The Crash Test Dummy said...

I am soooo touched by this post.

The New YOU! That's fantastic. Or as Wolgang would say, THAT'S TREMENDOUS!

So happy for you I just want to give you a hug.

I've missed you. I've missed me too.

The Crash Test Dummy said...

btw, this was a hilarious post too.

And I loved the moment of silence for your sarcasm.

Barbaloot said...

I can't comment on today's post?! But really---I just hope the airport is awesome! I loved going to pick my brother's up so I'm super excited for you!