I found my key the other day. I didn't know it was lost. It isn't a key to any tangible door. I had an "AHA" moment, and then, right before me was the key.
A key that I had begged for. Cried for. Longed for. Hoped for. Prayed for. There it was, right in front of me.
I have been searching for control in my life. Control over my life. Control of my life. The more things I tried to control the less control I seemed to have. That was THE KEY. I was trying to control THINGS, while still allowing OTHERS to have control over me.
I have found my key. CHOICE.
I choose to take my life back. I choose to be responsible for my life. That means I hold no one else responsible for what happens to me. I CHOOSE ME.
For those of you who know me, or of my circumstance, THIS IS BIG.
I have allowed others to have too much control over my life. I allow what others think of me to dictate what I will say, how I will act or who I will be.
I am good enough as I am.
I am worthy of love as I am, just because I AM. I choose to be happy instead of indifferent. I choose to love not just be loved. I choose peace instead of anger. I choose my husband and sons. I choose joy.
By choosing my own destiny I am taking back my life. The life I have been searching for all these years.
I thank God for small miracles and ask for one more. (I went to the doctor this week and received some not so great news. I will know more in July. You may get to see me glow again.)
This is our family right now. We have one son who is in Madagascar serving a mission. He has 5 months left. Our other son pictured here is a senior. Our time with him is winding down. This blog is for these men in my life. I love them with all of my heart! They mean more to me than words can describe....sometimes I am speechless (in a bad way too). That is all part of life. At the end of the day we love each other for each other, good, bad and not so pretty!
I am the mother of two awesome boys! One has recently returned from a mission for our church in Madagascar. Soon to be a Freshman in college.
The other is a Freshman in college and will be venturing out on a mission in the next year.
They have both brought me a lot of happiness and made me laugh! I am so blessed to have them in my life! They have had to go through things in life that some would feel are not fair, but they have not complained. They go through life with a smile on their face. They are a great example to me.
I am also the wife of an amazing man!!! Seriously! He does it all! He complains even less than my boys!!! I could not ask for a better companion than him. He is a great example to his sons. He works hard all week long, comes home and begins his work on our home and then continues to serve at our church. Yet, I do not feel neglected. He is there when I need him. He brings me lunch every day at work, he helps out at home, he loves me for me....what more can a woman ask for? Yep, I got him!!!
Can he be serious? Nope!
Our freshman....in college.
The Hubby (and his pal)
His only flaw....he doesn't know how to smile...hahahaha
OUR FAVORITE THINGS......
In the summer we LOVE to go to Lake Powell with my sister and her family. We have a blast there! There is never a dull moment whether it be from the kids, storms, bats or giant mice. We are constantly entertained by something or someone! Here are a few of my favorite memories.....
The Balloon Launcher
Many items were launched in 2005. Grapes, rotten tomatoes, live fireworks. ( I was the target for the fireworks.)
It was higher than it looked, especially for a scaredy cat like me. And by the way, I told Drew I was jumping, but didn't. He did!
My favorite place to be on a hot day! With one of my favorite nephews! (When he's in a good mood that is!)
A fun past time...watching others get their butt kicked on the molecule! Oh yeah!!!
Yep...the ride of my life....it hurt!
Bracing for the Storm
B-I-L and Hubby being pelted by the rain. The toys had to be secured!
The Many Faces of Hubby
Ok...he doesn't have many faces, in fact it's like pulling teeth to get a real smile out of him, so this makes this shot great!